Feel Safe

As the youngest of 8 children, I was frequently left behind or forgotten about by my brothers and sisters who were assigned the task of watching over me and my parents were too caught up in their own lives to ever notice me.

As a result, I spent a lot of time alone as a child, was very quiet and did not talk to many people. I made the best of it and to this day I am very content keeping myself company. On one occasion; when I had been forgotten about and had to walk home by myself. I became scared walking down the long dark county road that I had to travel to get home. I had never been taken to church by my parents but had developed my own relationship with God. I spoke to him quite often and asked question that I was sure I heard the answers to in my heart.

It wasn't a voice; just a knowing and warmth that always came with the answer. And, somehow I would just know. So, I talked to him on the way home, not about anything really important, just a friendly conversation to keep my mind off the scary road I was walking on. It might help to know that I was only 8 years old at this time.

I remember arriving home well after dark and not having been fed any dinner. I was really sad and no one even noticed that I had been missing. It occurred to me that I was unimportant and no one would even miss me if I were to just disappear from this earth. That was the last thought in my tired hungry body when I drifted off to sleep. And, I remember saying that I wished someone would notice me and come to check to see if I was all right. Sometime in the middle of the night I awoke suddenly and sat up in bed. There in the doorway was a beautiful lady with long blond hair and the bluest eyes you have ever seen, wearing what looked like a long white nightgown.

Standing beside her was a little girl that kind of looked like me also dressed in a white gown. They were only there for a moment, but in my head I heard her say, you are safe and you are going to be ok. I felt a beautiful warmth envelope my entire body and she was right, I felt safe and I knew in that moment that I was loved and someone was listening to me and they did care. I never forgot that moment and can recall it in vivid detail to this day.

You would think that was the end of the story. But, years later my 6 years old daughter was spending the night in my old bedroom at my mother's house. She was scared to go to sleep and my mother finally allowed her to keep a night light on in the room. She said she started to pray and told God that she was scared. In that moment, she saw the same lady and the same little girl standing in the doorway and she said she felt safe and immediately lay down and went to sleep.

I had never told her or anyone else the story from my childhood; I am very sure about that. How could she have possible seen the exact same thing 25 years later. The hairs on my arm stood straight up when she told me the story. My daughter stated quite simply, don't worry mommy, they were angels sent to make me feel safe.