No DoubtIn the fall of 2003, I was at the lowest point in my life. One night, I had decided to give up on life and end it all. I took over 100 pills through that night. I only slept for about two hours and when I woke up, I was more clear in my mind than I had been for weeks. I started crying out to the Lord and questioning, "Why don't You just let me die? You know how much I hate this world and how much I just want to be with you!"
I have known from a very young age that I will spend eternity in heaven with Jesus. I was crying all through the morning and surfing the channels to try to get my despair out of my mind, when I flipped to an old show that I loved as a child; Fantasy Island- you know, the one with "The plane, the plane". It was an episode about a man that wanted to see heaven and there were angels everywhere. I started laughing and said to the Lord, "Okay, I get it now. I have angels! You sent Your angels to minister to me to keep me alive. You are not going to let me die that way." Within a minute of me saying that, my doorbell rang. I answered it, and there stood three beautiful, young women. They asked if they had awakened me and I replied, "Something like that".
I was a total mess from being up all night and crying, so I'm sure I looked awful. They said," We won't keep you long, we just wanted to ask you something." I said, "Okay. What can I do for you?". They said, " Do you know where you are going to spend eternity?' Tears just streamed down my face and I said, "Yes. in heaven with Jesus Christ." I stepped out onto my porch that morning, with these three beautiful women, and they prayed for me.
When they were finished, I hugged each of them and told them, "Don't stop knocking on doors, because you never know who is on the other side who truly needs you." I went into my house, shut the door, and walked to the window to watch them walk away, and they were gone. That was the first day of the wonderful life I have now. I am so very happy that the Lord chose not to let me go that night, that He sent His angels to minister to me, and that He opened the eyes of my heart!!!!