A Visitation

December 14th, 1995 I lost my best friend in an auto accident. She was 25 years old and the only friend I had had in years. This broke my heart. Only 9 months earlier i had lost my father to cancer so it was a double blow. Jennifer (my friend) had helped our family through his death and when it was her own I wondered how I would get through hers.

Since it had been a disaster not foreseen as with my father, I didn't get the chance to tell her how much she had meant to me and how thankful I was for her...not even able to tell her how much I loved her. This bothered me a great deal.

Two weeks after her death I had a "dream" about her. She came to our front door and holding my niece whom she had never met....and a niece we hadn't seen in years. My mother ached for this grandchild but had reconciled herself to the fact she'd probably never see her again.

There was no logical reason that Jennifer would be holding her, but you know how "dreams" go. Anyway, I opened the front door and there stood Jennifer holding my niece and handed her to my mother who was behind me and said. "Here, I know you have been wanting her." I was DELIGHTED to see Jennifer because in the dream...I knew she had been killed but yet here was my chance!! I cried and cried and cried and told her everything that had been eating me up that I didn't say while I had the chance while she was alive.

She told me not to be a dork because she had known it all along. I begged her to stay but she informed me she had to go. When I woke up I truly felt as if I had just been with her. It was the first bit of peace I had had since her death two weeks earlier. I told my mother about the dream and she had said..."Well who knows? Maybe you actually talked with her." I wondered about that for the next few weeks....but if I *had* talked with her....why was my niece in the dream?? This caused me to write it off as just that...a dream, UNTIL, a few weeks later in the middle of the night. My ex sister in law called. She wanted to come by and bring my niece to see my mother.

We hadn't seen or heard from her in two years. When I heard the news I couldn't believe it!!! I hadn't dreamed after all....I was blessed with a true visitation I believe.

My niece was in the dream as a confirmation of it. I believe God knew my desire and gave me that peace. I mean Jennifer never even having MET my niece but yet she was in the dream carrying her. And I remind myself that when I woke up....I had that feeling of Jennifer's presence and I had that peace. Call it what you like, I know what it was

Marion Rash