Nick

Did my friend commit Suicide?
Rosa Southworth, Ca

It was about 2 years ago. Nick was my ex boyfriend and he had moved to AZ because of his mothers health. I was a freshman and he was in the 8th grade. I hadn't heard from him in a long time as we had remained very close friends. I became very worried about him but I figured that he was just busy with school.

About a month later a friend of my dad's came over for a chat and he asked me if Nick was my ex-boyfriend. I told him yes, but that even though we broke up we were thebest of friends still. He looked at me and said, "well I just heard that he had committed suicide a few weeks ago. Everyone at the park (the place he used to live) is talking about it".

I ran into my house sobbing and threw myself onto my bed. I couldn't stop crying. I didn't understand and even though I had doubt in my mind I told myself it couldn't be true. It hurt so much. I got myself off of my bed and I decided that I would take a shower so that I would have time to calm myself and also so that my dad wouldn't see me like this. When I was in the shower I began crying all over again. Nick couldn't have taken his own life, he was too sweet of a guy. He even sent me flowers after he had moved with a card. He was too happy, he couldn't be gone.

That night I layed inmy bed and cried so hard, I prayed for God to watch over him and me no matter where he was at that moment. That night I had a dream with him in it. He told me he was ok, for me not to worry. We had been in the most beautiful forest at the time. I woke up afterwards. I knew he was ok. The next day he called me on the phone. :) I told him about the rumor and my prayer and my dream. He couldn't believe that someone would believe something like that about him. I still don't know what he thinks about my dream. I know with out a doubt that it was God helping me in my time of pain.